No, not her... ME! I know that super cute little bundled up adorableness looks sooo sweet and innocent, but let me tell you my friends, looks are definitely deceiving on this one!
Let me start off by saying that I am head over heels in love with my kid. She makes me want to be a better person and work harder so I can give her everything that she wants/needs. I love our little talks in the morning, and think it's cute how excited she gets when I lay her down and she knows I'm going to change her diaper lol I don't even mind being tired all. the. time. I'm actually kind of getting used to it, surprisingly!
That being said... she is a difficult baby. If she is awake, you must give her all of your attention... at ALL times. I have become a master at cleaning, cooking, doing laundry, and paying bills one handed. She knows exactly how to get what she wants too. It's funny how much she can make me do... I almost feel like I'm her little puppy and she has trained me with commands to sit, stand, rock, sway, feed, change, walk, bounce, and many more. It's just super tiring to never get a break. I can maybe get away with 10 minutes with her in her crib, but it just depends on the day. Most of the time Pat or I is holding or playing with her from the time we get home till the time she goes to bed. It's exhausting... By the time she goes to bed, I want to go to bed so I feel like I never get any 'grown up' or 'me' time!
It sucks.... but... I wouldn't have it any other way. I was talking to my mom the other day about how difficult Kimber is sometimes and told her I am really glad our first is this way, because now this is the behavior I expect if we have another. I feel like if we had an easy going baby for our first one, I would really struggle if we have another and he/she is challenging. I just keep telling myself that this will pass, as everything does, and to cherish everyday with her because at this age, they are growing and changing so quickly. I can't sit and dwell on how exhausted I am because then I might miss something great she's doing.
And so goes motherhood. Chloe is a difficult baby. I'd say it's the Breedlove blood, but Colin was so good and easy! ;-)
ReplyDeleteI'm tired there with ya. Chloe still wakes up at least once a night and they say her heart burns more calories because it has to pump harder so I'm scared she'll lose weight if I don't feed her.
I'm really excited about Kimber's Valentine. I made it... ahem... I mean Colin put the pieces together, then I took them back apart, blinged it out, and reconstructed it. It's just a card, but a cool one.